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"my heart sinks at every sight of you."
The reads are for pleasure
The visuals are for contentment
There's no intention to associate with any individuals
inquisitor
simple
dancer
shoes
random
food
books
smile
| Sunday, 15th November 2009 |
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I was clearing my drawer when I came across the wedding stuffs. Instant flashbacks, no not of the person, but the situation that we were in. All seemed too near perfect, but it just had to shatter. My dreams. All of it. I walked past by the boutique wondering when or more like will I ever get to put it on??
I know that your plate is full. No, I wasn't demanding an extravagant. I just needed assurance. I just needed to know that, Yes, we are heading somewhere in due time. Perhaps I shouldn't have brought it up. And that text, don't know why, it caused fear.
It's but another phase of my life I guess. One that I try to avoid thinking about, immersing myself with dance and dance. Hibernation is over, I am back in the dance momentum. Many shows coming up, new choreography. If performing arts was enough to sustain me in this small city, I would have made it my full time career without giving it a second thought. really. Dancing gives me the satisfaction albeit the aching legs, the aching waist and the strenuous trainings. It is just too bad. period.
Suttirak, Thank you for spending quality time with me even though we couldn't have the whole day to ourselves. Being by your side is always priceless.
P/S: 23 more days.
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| Sunday, 8th November 2009 |
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I guess the body finally gave way after weeks of tormenting the mind mentally and physically. Just the right timing; after the final paper. That's a phew.
And the lady decided to give the blog a new look. Got tired of the old one. It's been weeks that the page been stagnant. So yeah.
Like finally all the papers are down. Now there's this major issue that is bugging me. The parents have yet to know I think. All those blank space staring. God is really testing my endurance. I got to get a grip of myself on this one.
Sometimes, there is just so much one want to do but can only do. There are really alot of things that I wish I can execute; but there's only this much that can be done. But oh well, I have decided to go by this: "Appreciate and Live for every moment, then Life would be Beautiful." That works for me. I try, at the very least.
Random I know. But I like it that way. Ouh and I am counting down to Bandung. The much awaited trip. And nothing beats more when I am with thee. =)
P/S: It's 30 more days. Pardon me for the picture-less entries, I need to go and get a new camera charger. |
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| Monday, 12th October 2009 |
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Raya visitings are finally over. Now it's exams and assignments crunch time. Will be right back to update with pics and all....i hope.
P/S: Happy B'dae Summer and Mama MeL! Muacks! |
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| this love is so ideal @ 8.51pm |
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| Thursday, 1st October 2009 |
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I tend to be very expressive at times..there is always a need for me to profess something even though i feel that it is indescribable. So the only way is through those status updates, but it seems it is giving others alot of hints i guess. Why not tell personally?? heh. It's like sending a message in a bottle. There's always this element of "taking thee by surprise?" I prefer the natural way rather than having to tell at times. Seems so superficial. I mean that is how i really feel...those are my feelings...so yeah.
So far all is ok, but sometimes I admit I do tend to take a step back and ask the worthiness of it. There's never a doubt in you. Never. Oh well, I guess it is all about time and of course I would love to be in a position where the confidence is comforting..till then it is all about getting to know.
Yes, I am still up at this hour mind you just to complete the installation of the printer's driver. I really need to print my notes. A few minor hiccups today. Edgy.
Before I forget, today is Sidekick's birthday. Happy Birthday Nad!! I really hope later is going to be a better day for you.
P/S: Strange, but I miss all the late night talks.
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| life with Superman @ 2.31am |
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| tuesday, 22nd September 2009 |
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Everyone thought I could be strong, would be strong. I thought that too, but there will always be something that is pulling me back. A song? A memory? How hard is it for me to just leave my footsteps? I hope time doesn't take its own pace.
On another note, I have started to like the way things are right now. This path. I know what I want to achieve and somehow or rather subconsciously discipline automatically takes its place. Well, to be happy is a choice and I definitely choose to be happy despite the above setbacks.
And it wouldn't be fair to my family, sister love, lovelies (even though they are far) and kaderians giving me their utmost support and standing by me...
And to thee, who has always been there for me just listening ... ~ always so patiently... =)
Now, I have to brave through tomorrow. I got to go and study for my test.
P/S: I definitely have to gain back all those kilos that I have lost...
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| Monday, 21st September 2009 |
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It has been a while. It's all over now. Leaving it all behind me as memories. I have decided not to link and display my archives. So yeah...happy happy moments from now on!! =)
Ok the relatives are here, brb. Daaaa.
P/S: Selamat Hari Raya to all...
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